if you have been keeping an thoughtful eye on twitter or your facebook page, that is if you'd added me, you would have known that i've not only on a pure emotional roller coaster ride, but also a physical one.
studying, was the latter one.
but that's really fine, because i really love how i enjoy my study's way.
but you've got no idea how much i'm going through.
both emotionally and mentally.
i won't be surprise if the grey or white hairs are growing on my head already.
well, i won't say it out loud about what happened.
because:
1) i'm definitely not at all smug and proud about what happened,
2) i know whose fault it lies with at the end of the day and
3) it's an impulse i'd regretted but definitely will laugh at myself when i look back.
it's something i'm sure every single one of you have done it before.
whether you are still in school or not.
it really isn't anything pleasant and something you want anyone to know, come to think of it.
someone better, someone long-tempered.
someone who can aid you in your life, somehow.
someone who thinks for you before acting.
someone who can go an extra mile to make you happier.
someone who put herself to think in your shoes before saying anything.
and all those you'll dream of me to be.
or plainly just somone you'll like easier.
but i totally see no point now, or is there?
studying, was the latter one.
but that's really fine, because i really love how i enjoy my study's way.
but you've got no idea how much i'm going through.
both emotionally and mentally.
i won't be surprise if the grey or white hairs are growing on my head already.
well, i won't say it out loud about what happened.
because:
1) i'm definitely not at all smug and proud about what happened,
2) i know whose fault it lies with at the end of the day and
3) it's an impulse i'd regretted but definitely will laugh at myself when i look back.
it's something i'm sure every single one of you have done it before.
whether you are still in school or not.
it really isn't anything pleasant and something you want anyone to know, come to think of it.
someone better, someone long-tempered.
someone who can aid you in your life, somehow.
someone who thinks for you before acting.
someone who can go an extra mile to make you happier.
someone who put herself to think in your shoes before saying anything.
and all those you'll dream of me to be.
or plainly just somone you'll like easier.
but i totally see no point now, or is there?
sighs......
i'm... i'm just really... fucked up tired.
i've tried, and am still trying.
but why am i getting nothing?
not that i expect anything, really.
but an encouragement or sign of support wouldn't kill you, would it?
here i am trying to get over the past, work towards the future.
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