just another day filled of emotions.

i really really really hate crying.
i hate having to wipe my tears off my face, doing it all alone just made it worse...'

things had not gotten any better.
at least to me.
everything just seemed to be at their dullest and most lifeless moments...
i told myself, i'll pull myself together.
and people reminded me, time and time again.
that this isn't what's worst in a life.
someone might be far far far having a much difficult time handling something they never expect to.

but then again, life's a test.
and this one is a definitely a hard one for me.

and on a random note, i wish to apologise.

to people i might have hurt before.

in any different kinda of communication.
not doing it for the sake of wanting to gain people's attention, whatsoever.
but i really really really felt sorry for all that silly things i'd did in the past.


it's a wonder how i don't seldom go back to be in touch with my past already.
i used to be someone who loves to reminisce, alot.
but i hardly ever touch the archives of my blog anymore.
it literally pains me to go back to those happy moments where i think i really don't deserve it at all.
or the sad ones, they'll probably push me to an edge when i think i can never ever be happy again.
and on the raging mad ones, i might really need to take control of my temper.

this might be the first time i'm feeling so much at once.
so nostalgic on everything i see, hear, touch and smell...


alright, this 'emo' rant of mine had gone a tad too long.
i'mma stop now